Day 4 – Tonight will be brief. It’s actually earlier than I usually write but I am very tired today. The dreary weather knocks the spunk out of me. I had a good day but it seemed long.

I have continued to work on my never-ending issues I have with mankind. The more I thought about a few of my self-made problems today the more I realized that the person I am fretting about is not worth this much effort. Said person is a fake and a hypocrite. I’m really not sure why I give this human so much space in my head. All I can come up with is that I knew this person when he/she was different. THAT is the person that I have a hard time walking away from. So once I get it through my head that that person died and I somehow missed the Obituary Notice I will be able to move on. It’s very hard to finally see the light and face the truth. It’s taken me years. I’m in the final stretch and it’s a struggle to reach the finish line. I have so many people cheering me on that have already run the race and finished!!!! Each day I am closer.

I encourage anyone to write to me if they feel the need. Whether it be to tell me I’m on the right track or that I am heading down a road to nowhere. I did have one conversation today with a very good friend. She told me that yesterday’s blog sounded like the “old me”. Yes, it probably did. The “old me” needs to go away. The only way I can get her out of my head is to write. I know that sounds dumb but it really does help. I have written so many letters over the years to people to tell them my side or exactly how I feel. 99% of them don’t get sent. The good thing is that it’s then out of my head and I can move on. Tomorrow I will be in a better place. The new me will be back to write tomorrow night. Now to bed early to get some good sleep.

Nite Nite <3